im having a terrible toothache. one that is disrupting my hitherto ordered life in a disgusting way such that i cant even eat properly. imagine the agony of that! all those glorious food presented before me yet i cant swallow them into my stomach. then i started to think miserably: why of all people, me? i then comforted myself by thinking that god was just being fair. although i ate a lot of junkie, i can hardly be counted as a fat person, even without much exercise these days. so my punishment for all the crap ive eaten would be to make dental appointments for the rest of my life. that will aptly explain why my other teeth are also requiring the much needed attention from our friendly dentist-man/woman.

the tooth that has been bugging me since friday is the one that had undergone Root Canal Treatment (RCT) at Alexandra Hospital some 2 or 3 years ago. it is the last tooth on the left side of my mouth and i conveniently forgot the name its been given. the treatment stopped abruptly due to SARS and when i tried to call back to make another appointment, they didnt take my calls. or so i had remembered. from what i think i know, RCT involves retrieving the "root" of a tooth and then replacing the hollow space created by some amalgam, i think. since it will be brittle without its "root", a crown is needed to cover the whole tooth. i was stuck at the stage where the hollow space was being filled up. my tooth has proved to be strong without the crown but earlier this Feb, a part of it was chipped off. and another tooth on the right side of my mouth got chipped off too. how sad can my teeth get? i bet they are gonna need RCT sooner or later.

oh, my teeth.

♥ 8:56 PM

alright, time to update my lately-been-forsaken blog. ok let's see, last monday i went to Essential Brews with reub and he loved it. of course, anybody would melt in that ambience- dim and seducing lightings, nice food with exotic tastes and irresistably great brews. plus the company was fantastic and that was ME. haha we left quite early as i still hadda work at 8am the following day.

last tues. was supposed to meet up with xiaohui and xiaoling at orchard BUT neither of them told me it was cancelled cuz the rest of the girls cant make it. how sweet. i rushed to TOWN all the way from my workplace in JURONG to find myself being pangseh-ed. luckily, reub and willy and habib were in town too and they came and find me. so i had dinner with them instead at kfc. zinger burger's definitely finger-lickin' good.

ok and last week was march hols. the kids were predictably terrible and insane. i will never ever let my future children to behave like them. but well, kids will be kids so yeah. a lil mischieveness wont hurt. anws ive decided to quit end of may to save me the havoc in june.

the F1 season is here = reub's gonna ignore\neglect\abandon me for most part of sunday evenings = IM GONNA BAN F1 FROM THE SPORTING ARENA!!! only that i cant because the drivers earn god-knows-how-many-millions when they go round the track once.
ill be meeting up xiaoling, xiaohui, hana and sihui today at je. hope ill not be pangseh-ed again!

♥ 9:37 AM

my family at Pariss International last year on my Father's birthday.

the sun is oh-so-glaring. us at ECP last year, after A's.

pretty me on the bike.

yessica sihui hana stephy me xiaohui xiaoling. sajc prom 2oo5.

me and reuben darling.

my 2 best buds in sa.

cheryl me dawn xiaoling xiaohui stephy. the bus stop outside sajc, malan road.

and i want this pair of thongs from the Papillio edition of Birkenstock!

♥ 11:00 PM

hey ho! it's a saturday! met up with reub darling and ate BK @ westmall. then he gtg for some dinner celebration cuz its his aunt's birthday today.

i had a jog this morning. seems ages since i last ran(which is true). i wore my new GREEN nike sports shoes and my feet ended up having blisters. i was just jogging and thinking about the courses i wanna take..
pharmacy has been my target for the past few months,
but nus's life sciences(biomedical science or molecular and cell biology) sounds good too,
and there's food science and technology,
or that new course in ntu on tourism and hospitality,
then again i heard that ntu's life sciences courses are better than nus's,
so im at a total loss of what to take!
shit why must my GP be a bloody C5 it just destroys everything argh. and i read that for nus those who failed to get a B4 or above must take a Qualifying English Test, and if fail, gotta take some communication and english proficiency course! WTH! I DONT WANT!!!
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life's been random nowadays. work is getting ok, since their exams have finished. but march hols will spell doom for me cuz the kids are going to go crazy literally.

i just want a simple and ordinary life.

♥ 8:36 PM

i cant argue or justify my points for nuts, no wonder my General Paper got a C5. ok well i know my gp has been like shit but i thought i could scrap through and be lucky with a B4 but now i guess im so wrong! haha well actually my target was C5 and which i really got it, including all the other targets ive set for myself sooooo, ive got nothing to complain or whine about.

but im sad, because some of the people close to me may be going overseas to further their education. and im sad because they're really sad. and im sad because i knew how jiani fared and messaged her to ask what are her plans, she simply replied me with a "going sim" and didnt bother to ask how i did. we sort of quarrelled a week ago, over some really petty stuff. but i guess she doesnt view our friendship that important anymore and well, fine by me.

most important of all, im sad because i can feel pangs of sadness radiating from him. i know how devastated and tormented he's feeling now, yet i cant do anything about it. in the silence, i can feel his heart crying. yes, of course he didnt cry out openly but honestly i'd rather him do that.

everything happens for a reason.

♥ 7:31 PM